Hey! So I finally got some time to sit down and update! It's still been insane around here. Unpacking boxes and organizing, while working long 8 hour days for a rotation! But I realized I don't mind actually because it's "so worth it." I heard this phrase today and it just seemed to apply to my life. Sometimes I think it's so much hard work lately with weight loss and working and moving, but it is really worth it. I'm enjoying my rotation a lot and learning so many new things. I'm enjoying my new fit body and becoming more adventurous. It really is worth it!
On a different note, I'm still mentally catching up with my weight loss. I am down to 147 this morning. That's so amazing to me considering there was a point not so long ago when that same scale read 280! I see the difference in my body and I know that I am a size 10 now, not a 24, but mentally I am still far from "healthy." I am still self conscious about fitting into small places or borrowing my friends clothes (which I do fit in :) ) I know I need to focus on this because in order to maintain my weight loss I have to accept my new self. I will make more of an effort in the upcoming weeks to acknoledge my weight loss and accept that I am healthy and I have come so far. It's ok to consider myself healthy and beautiful and worthy. I just need to keep reminding myself! I'm sure with time I'll reach that point where I don't see the "fat" me. Alright, enough of a tangent there haha. I'll check back in later this week! Until then, I'm working, enjoying the lake and family. I hope you all have a great week too! :) Thanks for reading!
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How did a young girl get so smart? That's exactly the step I missed in previous weight loss attempts - accepting and understanding my new self. You have great wisdom for a young one!
ReplyDeleteI understand about getting to a point where you don't see the "fat" you. I'm still 219 pounds (also down from 280! Woot!), but when I go to stores I still pick up the largest possible size; when I go to restaurants, I worry about not fitting into the booth; when I go out with friends, I still feel like the "fat one."
ReplyDeleteIt takes so much change - mental and physical - to get out of this fat mentality.
I'm proud of you! :)